new journal....still xanga, but different name! ask me on msn or e-mial me, and i will tell you the new one, but DON"T say anything on here about it ebcause i don't want my parents to find it!!!!

thanks, renee

been in the hospital all summer. tired to hurt myself too much and worried a bunch of brainwashers (psyciatrists). but i'm out now. going to school part time. i dyed my hair. made ice cream. ate some chips. i have to start reading other peoples journals. i haven't been on a computer all summer, and the home computers all have xanga blocked, cause its bad. and makes me worse. if anything i think it helps me. but whatever they want to think, i'll respect their rules and not go on this at home. they dont understand that i know everyone on here, your'll not just total strangers.

-renee

Currently Watching Edward Scissorhands (Full-Screen Edition) By Johnny Depp, Winona Ryder see related

parents desided that xanga and lj are bad. people are going to stalk me. they don't know what its like. or what it really is and there not even open to trying to find out. little do they know that i know who everyone is and i mean yes there is a chance that someone could stalk me but its the saqme as the chace of getting west nile from a mosquito. very little. but the media makes it seem big. they can stop me from going online at home. but cannot stop me from going online at other places. so HAHAHA. oh and my parents will be reading everything on here. does anyone know how to delete a journal? i'm not alllowed on the computer, so i'll just talk to you guys on the phone. (yes mom i know these people. lots of them are from pw and kits and shawnigan. but think what you like i know you'll never belive me)

that is all.

-renee

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places
Worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going no where
Going no where
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression
No expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow
No tomorrow
And I find I kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday
Happy birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen
Sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me
No one new me
Hello teacher tell me what’s my lesson
Look right through me
Look right through me
And I find I kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Enlarging your world
Mad world 

-renee

I hurt myself today,
to see if i still feel,
I focus on the pain,
the only thing thats real,

The needle tears a hole,
the old familiar sting,
try to kill it all away,
but I remember everything,

(Chorus)
what have I become,
my sweetest friend,
everyone i know,
goes away in the end,

and you could have it all,
my empire of dirt,
I will let you down,
I will make you hurt,

I wear this crown of thorns,
upon my liars chair,
full of broken thoughts,
I cannot repair,

beneath the stains of time,
the feelings dissapear,
you are someone else,
I am still right here,

What have I become,
my sweetest friend,
everyone I know,
goes away in the end,

and you could have it all,
my empire of dirt,
I will let you down,
I will make you hurt,

if I could start again,
a million miles away,
I will keep myself,
I would find a way,

-renee